A Joke

i feel so frustrated just suppressing my emotions like this
but i cant tell you this
cuz even if i told you
even if you were even in my shoes
you still wouldnt know how i feel
so you're throwing me away
because you're tired of me?
was this nothing more than a setup?
just so you can watch me fall?
i want to shove everything on the table aside
and kick the the table to the ground
you're saying its for fun?
everything about us was for FUN!
i laugh hysterically
so you're saying it was a joke?
because you're turning it into one helluva sick twisted joke!!
i cant think! i cant even process what's even going on!
my head is buzzing.
my eyes are blurring.
my heart is sinking as my feet are heavily pulled to the ground.
im paralyzed.
swallowing the tears.
choking the sobs because...
i dont want to be shot down again.
no, i dont think i want to go to school tomorrow.